Freedom

listening to: Herbst - Qntal.

It's great to have a secret webblog. Everybody should try it sometimes. I feel so incredibly free. I am actually sharing some really deep stuff but nobody knows who I am so...

On my first blog I thought a lot before writting something. I don't know if I mentioned it, but I am a little the paranoic type. It's ridioulous, I know... at least I know I have this problem. Anyway, I was always concerned what people would think about me and that took my writting freedom.

I got a counter for this blog so that I know if someone is actually reading this. I discovered that probably nobody is. And still I feel like writting here everyday (something I never did in my former blog)

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listening to: Ad Mortem Festinamus - Qntal.


So today I finally went to the movies and saw an old friend of mine I really like. I missed her a lot. We used to spend a lot of time together but now our lives kinda got separeted. I am glad we are getting closer now.

I've been obessed about something. I probably will talk about it a lot here. I have this urge about talking about it', however I don't want to do it in real life in real talking...

When I get angry about something I can get really angry. At the very moment I feel anger when thinking about three different people: one I actually feel sorry for, the other is a jerk who doesn't know where is Poland (for christ sake! he's german!!) and the other I don't really hate. But I could easily slap him in my own imagination. I am also angry at some friends... former friends... and they have to do with the girl I had a problem with... I will talk about it in other posts, although my paranoic side is telling me someone who knows this people will find this blog and... well, not that they don't know it - I'm not the hiding type - just that... I don't really know. Anyway, I will probably invent them new names just in case to furfill my paranoic wishes.

I am going to have a nice cup of tea and a try to sleep a bit...